I'm far too tired to hash out my life and sorrows on these pages. So I will simply leave a quote for everyone who cares to read; ponder this:

"Now, in the dark World in which I dwell, ugly things and surprising things, and sometimes little wondrous things spill out at me constantly, and I can depend on nothing."

How sweet is that icon btw. Just thought I would share some pretty sweet picturage ya'll

So I saw "Amelie" for the first time on Friday. I was, for lack of better expression, BLOWN AWAY! I have decided it is my new favorite movie and I am now equally obsessed the French language. Basically, if you haven't seen it, you have to or you will probably die. Seriously. It is just one of those movies. Oh, same with "Pan's Labyrinth." Jesus Christ that movie was totally unexpectedly awesome in a way I was not intending. I went in expecting some cute little kids movie and I walked out with amazement and a little bit of fear on my face. That was also a fantastic movie. I can honestly say I am going to buy it. It was so full of everything you could want in a movie.
P.S. "The Fountain" rocks too by the way. You all need to see it.

So, Holy shit. I am so gonna be usurped. I shall have to control EVERYONE'S MINDS! I WILL BE OBEYED MUAH MUAH MUAH.... etc.

I am honestly feeling highly fiesty. Damn, how the hell do you spell that? That is gonna kill me. Fucking spelling errors.... son of a bitch...
See what I am saying? I am feeling mighty agressive. I am thinking we should all WRESTLE!!! Hells yea that would be fun. It would have to be in a non violent way though, as I ama pascifist.
Right now though, I really want to go ape-shit upside some dumbasses. The sound of bone crunching is luring me, even now, into a state of serenity. I am hoping this phase passes. Before I start going postal on some idiots.
You know what would be great?! An all you can kill free for all on my ex..... ooooh. That would be absolutely divine. I can honestly say I would feel ethereal after such a wonderful encounter with that backstabbing cheating son of a bitch.
He is gonna get his! I am freaking excited.

Because I am not sure. Everyone seems to be suffering from some variation of it or another. How do you know when you have it?
I feel sadness sometimes. I feel despair. I feel anger at the world and mourning for my life. But, I don't know, do I need a pill? Do I need a constant reminder that I could not handle my own problems and that I now need to to fall back on a chemical helper? Sometimes I don't get it. If you are having to take a pill to be like everyone else, are you happy?
Are you overjoyed that you need supplements to fit in? Are you filled with mirth at the thought of popping a pill everyday?
Is it so worth it to be 'normal'? Why is it so wonderful to be normal? What gain do you obtain from such self-change? I will never understand why people hold conformity above all things. I will never conform to conformity for the sake of acceptance.
If a society/person cannot accept you as you are, why do you care?
Why do I have to be what everyone wants to be what I want?
I hate it.
The only times I feel I can be myself completely are when I am fucked up with inebriates. How pathetic is that? I have to resort to self-modification to feel normal.
I hate this fucked up life, this fucked up society, this fucked up world.

Hmm. Quite a rant. I suppose it is based on my everyday insecurities when I am surrounded by people. People that are better looking. More intelligent. More loved.

I have issues. I thought maybe an outside perspective would give me some clarity. Open to suggestions and psyche evaluations.

So, when I said I thought I was a Utopian Socialist. I simply was trying to convey how I thought i t was ridiculous that anybody could possibly believe that capitalism is an effective system to run on.
I know Utopia is not going to be reached in America in my lifetime. God no. I am a firm believer however that A switch from this capitalist society would be more beneficial than anything conceivable for the American people.

But then again, any intelligent human being would have to realize the ramifications of utopia. It is equivalent to communism, obviously. How could I have been so ignorant as to think otherwise. I'm sure the utopia brought on by a perfectly created system of socialism is all bad.

ugh....Let's just say I am completely tired of the ignorance I see in people. "I am not close minded, you are just wrong..." But, I am supposed to look at reality with an objective view and a grain of salt. Let me tell you, it is quite difficult to listen to people talking about how capitalism in America is a positive. It seriously kills me not to jump up and tell them that a dictatorship would probably be more effective.
Damn Americans. Honestly, it is odd to think, but my own people are so ignorant to the world... and they are okay with that.
I would like to formally ask anyone on this site to murder me upon the condition that I ever become as ignorant as those that preside in our "fine" country. Those that have been previously mentioned. Feel free to use your imagination when crafting exactly how you will do it. I also hate laziness. I am looking forward to many suggestions on how to properly destroy me.

catchy title eh? i enjoy it.
i am just sitting here getting ready to have a very eventful weekend. lets just say inebriated.
that is my favorite state so far in college. you should all love it. it is cool.
i had a very long week. i am pleased it is at its conclusion.... but then again, i am a sadist.
have a good weekend all :P

Yea. so basically. people should say hello. I am just a wittle bit shy and I prolly wont talk to you. so, if you are reading this, feel free to throw a few words my way. That is all